You retired from the hospital after twenty-one years of service and worked at various jobs after that, wanting to broaden your horizons in the work world. You decided not to document very many more of your experiences because you were tired of it all and really did not care anymore. Your journal stopped at 2001, after thirty years of documentation.
I told Jesus that Father Geidman and I are aging. He was now sixty-five, and I was now forty-eight. If my past experiences are true, and if we are who I believe we are, then I wanted some kind of sign from Jesus to let me know that He is still with me in this ‘thing’. But after a few months of no signs I came to believe that I was wrong about everything and I should move on with my life. I let my guard down because I had gotten nowhere with Father Geidman after thirty years. I decided that I should make funeral arrangements for myself. I had plans to go the funeral home to talk to them about purchasing a casket and a plot and making final plans for my exit from this world. In just a few days I would be making those plans. Then September 11, 2001 came and changed everything, not only in the world, but in my life as well. I cancelled those funeral home plans and watched, along with the rest of the world, the events that transpired.
Stuck In The Moment
U2 - 2000