You saw Jesus many times since
1971. The songs ended but strange things continued. You asked Jesus to send
someone to you that could help you through this difficult time. He did and some stress was lifted just by
having that person in your life. You moved in with your mom hoping the strange things would cease, and they did for awhile. When war was
declared on Iraq you began to get pressure from above to contact Father Geidman, but refused to contact him. You bought a subscription to a
Catholic newspaper and asked Jesus to tell you where Father Geidman was via that newspaper. You
figured out Father Geidman equals 666. Did Jesus tell you where Father Geidman
was via the Catholic newspaper?
Summer 1991
I had not yet read any
information in the Catholic newspaper concerning Father Geidman. Then, in one of the summer issues of 1991, there was a two page spread devoted to the
transfer of priests to other parishes. Father Geidman was amongst those listed.
Not only was there information on where he had been and where he was being
transferred, his photograph was also printed in that issue. So now that I
had the name of the parish where he was located, I could now contact him. I knew then that
the pressure I was feeling was indeed from Jesus.
Picture and Address of Father Geidman
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I knew I had to contact Father
Geidman now. But from previous experience, I knew I had to do something
different. So I decided to record a video tape of myself talking to him and
explaining things to him and just have him watch the tape at his convenience.
That way I could say and explain so much more. When I came to the part where I had pulled a
fire alarm in 1971 because I was mad at him for going to Europe and not telling
me, then to court, then to jail, then to a mental hospital, I pleaded with
Jesus. “Jesus”, I cried out, “Do I have to tell Father Geidman all this?” I did not want to include it because it was so
humiliating and so embarrassing. But Jesus told me to include it in the video,
so I did. I did not want to, but I obeyed Jesus and included it in the video. I
had so much to say that I ended up with two videos, each two hours long. I had
covered twenty years of information in two video tapes.
Autumn 1991
When I finished the tapes I was
very pleased with the results. I then had to set a deadline for myself to
contact Father Geidman. I chose November 21, 1991 as my deadline date to contact
him because it was the date I had called him back in 1981. As the deadline grew
closer and closer I began to have second thoughts about contacting him. I told
Jesus, “Why should I contact him? I really do not appreciate the way he has
treated me in the past. He treats me like a little girl, he has told me that I
am out of my tree, that many things are just my imagination, he doesn’t really
understand me, he ignores what I tell him, he doesn’t listen to me, he’s
arrogant, and he makes me nervous! Not only that, but I spent three days in
jail because of him and several weeks in a mental hospital because of him. So
why should I go to him?” He failed me unnecessarily in religion and ruined my
summer in 1968, he ruined my prom, and he caused the demon to possess me, and
caused many emotional and traumatic events in my life. I was very irate and
told Jesus the plan was off and that I was not going to go to Father Geidman
with the videos I had made for him. I told Jesus to just forget it. I’m not
going and that was final. Then I threw the two videos in my bedroom closet and
slammed the door.
November 19, 1991
Just a few days after my
outburst, my mother was involved in a serious car accident. She suffered broken
bones, fractured others, broke her hip, and had numerous bruises all over her
body. The guilt hit me hard. I was living with her at the time so I became her
primary caretaker. Other family members also helped, but the burden was placed
on my shoulders. I slept very little during her recovery, and it was not until
several months later that I felt comfortable leaving her alone. She was never
left alone while she was recuperating. She recovered completely from her
injuries and even began to drive again. I felt so responsible for her accident.
If I had obeyed Jesus and contacted Father Geidman on the planned date, her
accident never would have happened. I felt it was my fault that she got injured
so seriously in the accident because I had backed out of the plan I made with
Jesus.
To Obey Is Better Than Sacrifice
Keith Green - 1978
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